So it has been two weeks since I got the results of my
blood tests and upped my iron. I didn't
get the "prescription" iron till this last week, but I quadrupled my
regular dose in the mean time. There has
already been a HUGE difference in my fatigue level. Little things still exhaust me, but not the
point of needing to take a three hour nap after. I am able to get through most of my day with
a dopio espresso to help with the energy level and taking breaks. So all in all that is a win.
I am happy to say that I
have taken this seriously and have not missed any days on vitamins since
the results came in. I haven't been
perfect, I have missed a few multi's here and there and taking my thyroid has
been a crap shoot, but it is a positive change in the right direction.
What I think is bothersome and needs to be looked at is
the fact that I even let it get to this point.
I KNEW what I had to do, since long before I even had the surgery. It was very very clear from the beginning,
from even the orientation class.
I knew it, I nodded, I bought the damn things, why did it
take having plummeting lab results for me to get my ass in gear and take it seriously? I mean, if you look back at past posts and
check-ins, taking my vitamins regularly was ... well a regular issue. So, why did it take something near
catastrophic for this to wake me up?
The honest answer is that I think that is just how I am
built. It took some near catastrophic
issues with my health and horrible
experiences at Harry Potter Land for me to decide to do something about my
weight and health to begin with, so really why would this be any different? There seems to be something about me that
says that I have to learn from experience, rather than learning from others experiences
or advice.
And it's not just
with my health that I seem to have to wait till things are crumbling before I
get a clue. It is that way in my life
for work, care of the house, etc. I will
KNOW that I need to deal with issues or work on something specific, but its not
till the last minute, till I am in crisis mode that I get around to it.
I am sure if I was still seeing my counselor, that this
"revelation" would feed several sessions worth to reflect on. *laughs*
I have spent two weeks beating myself up about the fact
that I am a moron and let my levels slip this badly. It is now time to get over it and move
on. So I learned my lesson. The important thing is that I REALLY truly
learn from this and not slip again in a month, two months or in two years. As long as I get my levels back up, it
doesn't do any permanent damage and I REALLY learn from this, then I need to
let it go and move on.